Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Sometimes You Just Need A Good Cry

Have you ever had a moment where you just break down and let all emotions out?(if you're a girl, the answer is so obviously yes.) Well, I had one of those moments tonight. One little thing upset me then my brain over thought everything, and I just sobbed. I'm not ashamed though. Worrying about everyone else's problems, and avoiding my own was getting to be too much. I felt so much better after I just let it all out.

I guess what I'm trying to say is don't be afraid of letting it all out. Showing your emotions is not a weak thing to do. They're there for a reason and you should take advantage of them when you need to.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

"A Lizard With A Ladder"

Recently, I painted a picture for my dad. It was the first painting I've done in 4 years. The reason I don't paint, is because I hate keeping my own paintings. I find it pointless to paint a picture I have nothing to do with. I really do enjoy painting though, and I want to do it more frequently, so I've come up with a plan.

If ANYONE would like something painted, I would be willing to paint it free of charge. You just have to supply the canvas. Keep in mind that I'm an amateur!! I can't paint people or animals.(yet) Also, since I work two jobs, it might take a while to get finished depending on the size of the canvas and what the picture is of. This offer is serious, and I would LOVE for people to take me up on it! Friend or stranger, I'm more than willing.

Here's some of my work so you can see if you trust me or not. I'm posting them oldest, to most recently done.

One of the first paintings I ever did!

I was 11 or 12 when I did this lighthouse and entered it in the State Fair getting an honorable mention

I painted this one for my friend Ashlee.

This one was painted for my friend Emily.

I finished this one for my dad in August of this year. My favorite one by far.

My next project is going to be this picture:

It's Lewis Carroll's orginal artwork from his book "Alice's Adventures In Wonderland." Hence the title of this post. It's a quote from the book as well.
This picture is going to help me practice on both people, and animals. I'm going to do it in color though. I'm excited to try it.

As I said before, please take me up on this offer. I need all the practice I can get!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Doggy Instinct

I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but my grandparents have a home down in Boulder, Utah. It's so beautiful down there. I love going.

My dad and I just spent a few days in Boulder. We went on the Calf Creek upper falls hike while we were there. It's a short and gorgeous hike, but it's extremely strenuous. Going down the trail wasn't bad, but coming back up was a different story. We literally hiked a mountain! I only died a little bit is all.

Sauxie luckily thinks she's a mountain dog, so I was able to bring her on the hike. Boy, am I glad I did! She went swimming for the first time! By force that is... She wouldn't voluntarily swim by herself, so I just helped a bit!

Yeah, funniest thing of my life. It helped her in the long run. It cooled her down for the hike back up.

I was glad to get away for a few days, and spend time with my family. If you've never been to Boulder, I highly recommend going sometime. It's so beautiful and there's so much to do down there. I wouldn't miss out on going for anything! Put it on your "To Travel" list! You'll be so glad you did!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Call It A Clan, Call It A Network, Call It A Tribe, Call It A Family. Whatever You Call It, Whoever You Are, You Need One.

I've been the "glue" to a broken family for almost 4 years now. But lately, I don't really know why I've been trying. It's hard when your family goes through HUGE changes ALL the time. In the past 3 years, my extended family has grown by 40+ people. 40 people! I don't even know all my cousins' names! These changes have been really hard on some people, causing them to distance themselves from everyone else. I try to have close relationships with all of my family members, but you always have those ones that don't want anything to do with you.

I've mentioned many a time how important family is to me. NOTHING is more important than family. If one of my relatives needed my help (even one of my cousins I don't know the name of) I would be there in an instant. Family are the people you're supposed to be able to rely on. Family are the ones you're supposed to want to spend time with, no matter how crazy they make you sometimes. Family are supposed to be the ones who you go to when you need love and support. Well lately, I'VE been the one everyone relies on, I'VE been the one FORCING relatives to spend time with each other, I'VE been the one giving the love and support. In return, I get yelled at, fought with, and no respect whatsoever. What kind of family love is that?

What kills me the most, is two of the people who mean so much to me in life, don't get it. They're always annoyed with me, cancelling on me, making other plans with their friends when we haven't seen each other in months, lying to me, and getting mad at me for reasons I find unimaginable.

I don't want to give up trying, but I'm getting nowhere. Should I stop nagging everyone to spend time together? Should I stop caring about what people are up to in life? Should I stop going to every single birthday, baptism, baby blessing, wedding, or simple family barbecue?

The answer is NO. I need to keep nagging, and I need to keep caring. I've got to be not just the "glue," but the "super glue." Family IS important and I never want to lose mine.

Families are supposed to be forever, so I better keep it that way.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

I Went To "Great Lengths"

Today I got a letter. It was from Locks of Love. Wanna know what they told me? They told me they actually used my hair for a hair piece.

 I. Was. Ecstatic.

I thought maybe they'd sell my hair, and use the money for something else, but no, I was wrong. I helped make a difference in someone's life. I felt so proud. It's not even that big of a deal, but I still feel so good about it.

I'm sure I'll donate my hair again in the future, but I am going to keep that letter forever and for always.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Some Cupids Kill

You know what happens if you try to hook people up? You end up having to find your own stupid date. It wouldn't be bad if you actually had someone to take, but uh, when you don't have any options, it's a bit tricky.

This is what I get for trying to play match maker. I've learned my lesson.