Cole left this morning for Ohio. I've been thinking about it non-stop this whole week. Mostly about how things will go. I have faith that everything is going to be fine. There are always those little "what if's" though. What if he's completely different after the surgery, what if he goes blind, what if it doesn't stop his seizures. What if, what if, what if. It's terrifying. This amazing little boy is about to go through something life altering...AGAIN, good or bad.
I'm SO glad I got to be a small part of his life. I'm glad I got to meet him. I'm glad I got to watch him, play with him, love him. I'm just glad I was so privileged to come to know this child. He's amazing in every way, shape, and form. I wouldn't trade my experiences with him for ANYTHING.
Even though we just met not too long ago, I can't stress how much you mean to me. You've touched my heart and I want to give you the world. Cole, you are a fighter, and I know you'll get through this. You are an extremely loved little boy. You deserve nothing but the best. You will get through this. You will get this surgery. You will fight like heck to overcome your seizures as you've already done so much. I'm praying for you, Cole. I'm rooting for you. Know that everyone is on your side, and you're not alone. You're a very special little boy, and your parents are lucky to have you. Stay strong, Cole, Stay strong.
As I mentioned in my last post, I ran a 5k on Saturday. It was a run for a woman named Camie who was recently diagnosed with cancer. My cousin is a good friend of her family, so she asked me to run it for her. I was more than happy to! I also drug Ashlee along with me. =]
Tons of people showed up, and as far as I've been informed $10,000+ was raised for her! Isn't that awesome?? It was pretty fun, but a lot of work. I have a long ways to go, but I'll get there someday!
Things have really been looking up lately. I'm feeling much better. I starting running again so that has helped a lot. In fact, I have a 5k in the morning. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, but I'm sure I'll enjoy it. Plus, it's for a good cause, so it's just all around a great thing.
I've also been bumped up to full time at work. More monies for me! I sure do like the sound of that. The only bad part about it is I won't be able spend as much time with the girls, since I'm working mostly graveyard. I still get to see them in the mornings and one day during the week. That's better than nothing! I honestly don't know how some people handle graveyards for days at a time though! I'll be working 3 in a row every week, but some people have to do it every night! Then again, I don't sleep after my shifts so that's probably part of the reason I have such a hard time with them. It's gotten so bad that I like to call my Saturday's "Sleepless Saturday's." It gets to the point where I'm up more than 42 hours because I just don't say no. I really need to start or else I'm going to make myself sick, and I really don't want to do that.
I'd have to say today was a really good day. I feel like I accomplished a lot. Morgan and I found a venue for the benefit concert for Cole, (details coming soon) and I cleaned the crap out of my house. When I wasn't feeling the happiest, I just kind of didn't care about my house work, so today, I started caring. I forget how much better it feels when everything is clean and you're worry free. You know, laundry done, dishes done, cleaning done, cooking done. It's just a great feeling to sit down and relax after all that hard work.
Well anyways, I'm so happy to be back on track with life. Being sad like that sucked, so let's hope that doesn't happen again anytime soon.