Thursday, December 29, 2011

Why I hate Xbox

Since the above is so rarely the case, resort to below as "Plan B."

Monday, December 26, 2011

Old Fashioned, Ugly Sweaters, And Brothers

Ahhh, yes. The joys of Christmas. Spending time with family, seeing everyone's smiling faces, and the gift of giving. I hope everyone had a great Christmas. I know I did.

Old fashion Christmas:
My granpa Anderson has an old cabin that he spent his Summers in back when he was younger. It's a little two room cabin that 8 of them shared. When all of us grandkids were younger, my grandparents would take us out to the cabin on Christmas Eve, and do an "old fashion Christmas" with us.  We would make paper chains and string popcorn and cranberries to decorate the tree with. We haven't done old fashion Christmas since I was in grade school. We finally did it again this year! So. Much. Fun. We made our paper chains, strung our popcorn, and sang carols. It was the best Christmas Eve I've had in a long time! Don't get me wrong, I've always enjoyed Christmas Eve, but this one was just so much fun. I love my family!

You work at a school, you wear ugly sweaters.

The people you love.
Also the people that drive you crazy.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Gender Differentiality

I find this following video extremely interesting so I wanted to share.

I was like every single girl on this video thinking, "Yeah! We can totally just be friends!" But now I'm second guessing myself. I want to take my own little survey and see what you guys think. Can we really just be friends?

Sunday, December 4, 2011


You all know what a sucker I am for the commercials. So here's yet another commercial that I love.

Saturday, November 26, 2011


Oh, and did ya hear?!?!

NBA lockout is OVER!!!!!
Boston's first game is on the 25th of December.
Merry Christmas to me!

Better Late Than Never!

This is my Thanksgiving post. I know, I know, a little late, but I wanted to do one. It's kind of sad that most of us only say what we're thankful for once a year. I like to think I talk about it more than that, but I'm still not the best. So here it is. What I'm thankful for!

First would be my jobs. No doubt. I. Love. Them. Seriously the best jobs ever. And I'm very lucky to be able to have two with this economy nowadays. 

Next, my family. I cannot stress how much I love them! Especially my dad and brother. My dad has taught me so much, and I'm so glad I can call him my father. And my brother, I just love him. He may not know it, but he really is one of my best friends. I love spending time with him. We always have a good time.

I'm also thankful for the friends I have. My friends are the greatest. From my crazy adventures with Lindsey, fun times with Ashlee and Emily, and spended like 75% of my time with Samantha, I just have the GREATEST friends. We just need to hang out more, guys!

My students. They teach me something new everyday. They help me gain more experience and knowledge. They light up the room and always have big smiles on their faces. They accept me as they're friend and teacher. I couldn't ask for a better class to help out with!

Now for the coworkers. I'm talking from both jobs here. There is sooo much I could say about each one of them, but to sum it up, they just rock! It's hard working in the field we work in, but they're all amazing at what they do.

Last but not least, I'm thankful for a warm house to come home to, a bed to sleep in, food to put in my tummy, and the clothes on my back. 

There is so much more I'm thankful for, but I'm most grateful for these things. Without them, I wouldn't be who I am today!

*Artwork done by my students

Saturday, November 19, 2011

A Thanksgiving First

The point of having a blog is to be able to share your thoughts, feelings, and opinions. This following post is about a subject with very strong arguments against it. Seeing as this is MY blog, and I'm sharing MY opinions, please be respectful and keep your negative comments to yourself.

Tonight I had an extremely eye opening experience. I was already open to the subject anyways, but I've gained a whole new respect.

Some people I'm quite close with are openly gay. This doesn't bug me and it never has. They're some of the most amazing people I know, living lives people only dream about living. Every year, they have a Thanksgiving dinner for all their friends and family. I was invited this year and I was truly impressed. As we went around the tables saying what we were all thankful for, I noticed on more than one occasion how many people were saying they were grateful they actually had a place to go for Thanksgiving because their families disowned them, or didn't understand them because of the lifestyle they chose.

As I was watching and listening I couldn't believe how close everyone is to each other. All of those people were one big family. They understood each other, and listened to each other. They've all been through the same thing and they all support one another. I could just feel the love in that room. I was overwhelmed with that sense of closeness.

Not being welcome home for the Holidays must be one of the hardest things. Having your family completely disregard who you are because of what you choose to be is just so sad. I realized what an amazing thing the two people I'm close with were doing. Giving people somewhere to go with people who love them, when they can't go to their own families. I really am just so impressed with it all.

I want to applaud every single person who accepts who they are. Being able to come out and say "I'm different" and being ok with it, takes a lot. No one should have to hide who they are. I'm so glad I got to share that experience with such a loving group of people. I definitely have a new found respect.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

39 Days 'Til Christmas!

So I haven't flat out said it on my blog yet, because I was worried about some people seeing it, but at this point I don't even care. I was waiting for a missionary though. Keyword was. He's been acting so weird the past few weeks. He's just been up and down about everything and sooo confusing. This week's email, he pretty much wrote me off and played the friend card. Sure I'm disappointed, but I'm mostly upset that 8 months of my life was wasted.

I guess this means I'm back in the field! I forget how exciting and terrifying the dating game is though. So uh, if you have any advice, lemme know =]

I'm truly amazed with how much I've grown up this year though. I went from being a jobless, irresponsible bum, to hardworking and responsible. I feel like my outlook on life is so much different than it was in the early months of this year. I was kind of just going with the flow. I didn't have goals for myself, or any desire to move on with things. I was content where I was. I now have goals for myself. I feel like I know what I want to do with my life. Number one goal is earning that money for my schooling! I'm doing very well with saving it up so far, and I think by the time I find someone looking for a hair apprentice, (which I think I may have found someone) I'll be more than ok on funds to start. Once I have my cosmetology license, I'll move on to aesthetics, which was my main goal from the beginning. It's going to take a couple of years for me to get that far, but I'm ready to start learning again. I need to put my life into gear even more than I already have. I really am anxious to start. Having all your friends going to school and moving on with their lives when you have no idea what you want to do with yours is embarrassing. I'm glad I've finally figured it out.

I've already mentioned it so many times, but I really am grateful for my life and the people in it. I'm grateful for my jobs. I'm grateful for my family. I'm just SO grateful! I couldn't be happier at this moment in time.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

'Tis The Season!

I don't know why, but Im SO excited for Christmas. I've already got most of my shopping done and I've started listening to Christmas music already. I'm totally not ashamed of this.

 I will assume I'm so excited because Christmas is going to be a whole new experience this year. I have a *not niece and a not sister-in-law! Two new family members! I like them lots. I just can't wait to spend the holiday's with them!

If it wasn't so frowned upon, you better believe my Christmas decorations would be up already. You win this one dad.... But I guess what I'm really trying to say is...

46 days until Christmas!!!

*Definition of not niece and not sister-in-law. My brother has a girlfriend with a baby. She's not my real niece (yet(<-----crossing my fingers!)) But I treat her like she is anyways. Therefore, she's my not niece. Same goes with the not sister-in-law.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Wikipedia The All Knowing

So we all know that sicknesses have different effects on people, right? So why is it different with diseases? Some people have more symptoms than others, some never get any of the symptoms at all. Does that mean they don't have it?

Fibromyalgia has tons of different effects on people. Some get really bad migraines and some people have certain joints that hurt instead of their whole body.

In my case, when Fibro hits me hard enough, I get super sick. My whole body aches and I just start throwing up. (sorry to be so graphic) It can last anywhere from a day, to a week. Sure I try not to let it stop me, but occasionally, I have to let it.

I had to let it stop me yesterday. I started out my day just fine, then what I wrote above starting happening to me. I'm not trying to find pity or anything, but I had someone tell me yesterday that I use my Fibro as an excuse.

First of all, you don't know me, so don't accuse me of that.
Second, just because you "looked in to it online" DOES NOT mean you know everything there is to know about it. When you've been diagnosed with Fibro, let me know.

It really, really upsets me when people say things like that to me. It hits way too close to home, and I never use my disease as an excuse. I know my body more than anyone does, and to be told I don't know what I'm talking about, really grinds my gears! I may be overreacting, but I needed to get it off my chest. And to my dear friend that has no idea what he's talking about, let's learn to keep our mouths shut, shall we? =]

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Ashley's Log, Stardate 43125.8

I have a lot of loose ends to tie up here.

First, I'm not doing that hair apprenticeship. I was told I got the spot, but she ignored my phone calls over and over, so now I'm back to square one looking for a teacher.

Second, I don't have a personal trainer anymore. I go to CrossFit instead. It's only the best thing ever!

Third, my life might've had 8 months wasted. There's this one guy on his mission, that I've been waiting for, and I'm not sure if he wants anything to do with me anymore. Which is why I've decided to start dating again.

Life is really good for me though! Still love my jobs and all that. I don't do much recreational wise, so that's something I need to change. I'm always working and I need to be able to relax! I'm still serious about my painting offer too, people!

All in all, I love my life, my friends, and my family. I couldn't ask for more. =]

Friday, October 14, 2011

Sleep Blogging?

So the post before this one... Yeah, don't even remember typing it. Creepy. I shouldn't get online when I'm tired.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Break Me Off A Piece Of That Kit Kat Bar

Jeepers, I stink at this blogging thing lately. I'm just SO busy. I work 7 days a week. I'm always exhausted! I still love my jobs though, so it's ok.

I think I need a rant though. Have you ever wanted to tell somene something, but at the same time you don't? Like if you aren't speaking to someone, but you really want to tell them this certain thing, but you don't want to be the first to give in? It's a tough situation! More annoying than anything.

You know, that's another thing I've been noticing lately. My patience limit is getting tested time after time, and I feel like it's breaking. I'M the one that needs a break!! Luckily I sort of get one next week though, so I think I can hang in there.

I feel like I don't have a life anymore. I work, work, and work, then I have no time for things I like to do in my spare time... Because I have none. Like painting! I have no time to paint! And when I do, I'm too tired. Friends. Well, I have one that I hang out with. But I'm such a bummy/tired person, that we usually just sit and watch movies while I fall asleep. That's not fun for anyone! Also, I NEVER get to see my family anymore. I live in the same house as my dad, but we go days without seeing each other because of our schedules. And my best cousin? FORGET IT!!! Our schedules don't work with each other AT ALL! It makes me so sad though because I would hang out with her multiple times a week, and now, we don't see each other for months at a time. It's the most ridiculous thing. It really is starting to weigh down on me though. I dunno what to do about it anymore, but ignoring the problem doesn't make it go away. I really gotta figure something out though. Cuz like I said, I'm exhausted.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Sometimes You Just Need A Good Cry

Have you ever had a moment where you just break down and let all emotions out?(if you're a girl, the answer is so obviously yes.) Well, I had one of those moments tonight. One little thing upset me then my brain over thought everything, and I just sobbed. I'm not ashamed though. Worrying about everyone else's problems, and avoiding my own was getting to be too much. I felt so much better after I just let it all out.

I guess what I'm trying to say is don't be afraid of letting it all out. Showing your emotions is not a weak thing to do. They're there for a reason and you should take advantage of them when you need to.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

"A Lizard With A Ladder"

Recently, I painted a picture for my dad. It was the first painting I've done in 4 years. The reason I don't paint, is because I hate keeping my own paintings. I find it pointless to paint a picture I have nothing to do with. I really do enjoy painting though, and I want to do it more frequently, so I've come up with a plan.

If ANYONE would like something painted, I would be willing to paint it free of charge. You just have to supply the canvas. Keep in mind that I'm an amateur!! I can't paint people or animals.(yet) Also, since I work two jobs, it might take a while to get finished depending on the size of the canvas and what the picture is of. This offer is serious, and I would LOVE for people to take me up on it! Friend or stranger, I'm more than willing.

Here's some of my work so you can see if you trust me or not. I'm posting them oldest, to most recently done.

One of the first paintings I ever did!

I was 11 or 12 when I did this lighthouse and entered it in the State Fair getting an honorable mention

I painted this one for my friend Ashlee.

This one was painted for my friend Emily.

I finished this one for my dad in August of this year. My favorite one by far.

My next project is going to be this picture:

It's Lewis Carroll's orginal artwork from his book "Alice's Adventures In Wonderland." Hence the title of this post. It's a quote from the book as well.
This picture is going to help me practice on both people, and animals. I'm going to do it in color though. I'm excited to try it.

As I said before, please take me up on this offer. I need all the practice I can get!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Doggy Instinct

I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but my grandparents have a home down in Boulder, Utah. It's so beautiful down there. I love going.

My dad and I just spent a few days in Boulder. We went on the Calf Creek upper falls hike while we were there. It's a short and gorgeous hike, but it's extremely strenuous. Going down the trail wasn't bad, but coming back up was a different story. We literally hiked a mountain! I only died a little bit is all.

Sauxie luckily thinks she's a mountain dog, so I was able to bring her on the hike. Boy, am I glad I did! She went swimming for the first time! By force that is... She wouldn't voluntarily swim by herself, so I just helped a bit!

Yeah, funniest thing of my life. It helped her in the long run. It cooled her down for the hike back up.

I was glad to get away for a few days, and spend time with my family. If you've never been to Boulder, I highly recommend going sometime. It's so beautiful and there's so much to do down there. I wouldn't miss out on going for anything! Put it on your "To Travel" list! You'll be so glad you did!

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Call It A Clan, Call It A Network, Call It A Tribe, Call It A Family. Whatever You Call It, Whoever You Are, You Need One.

I've been the "glue" to a broken family for almost 4 years now. But lately, I don't really know why I've been trying. It's hard when your family goes through HUGE changes ALL the time. In the past 3 years, my extended family has grown by 40+ people. 40 people! I don't even know all my cousins' names! These changes have been really hard on some people, causing them to distance themselves from everyone else. I try to have close relationships with all of my family members, but you always have those ones that don't want anything to do with you.

I've mentioned many a time how important family is to me. NOTHING is more important than family. If one of my relatives needed my help (even one of my cousins I don't know the name of) I would be there in an instant. Family are the people you're supposed to be able to rely on. Family are the ones you're supposed to want to spend time with, no matter how crazy they make you sometimes. Family are supposed to be the ones who you go to when you need love and support. Well lately, I'VE been the one everyone relies on, I'VE been the one FORCING relatives to spend time with each other, I'VE been the one giving the love and support. In return, I get yelled at, fought with, and no respect whatsoever. What kind of family love is that?

What kills me the most, is two of the people who mean so much to me in life, don't get it. They're always annoyed with me, cancelling on me, making other plans with their friends when we haven't seen each other in months, lying to me, and getting mad at me for reasons I find unimaginable.

I don't want to give up trying, but I'm getting nowhere. Should I stop nagging everyone to spend time together? Should I stop caring about what people are up to in life? Should I stop going to every single birthday, baptism, baby blessing, wedding, or simple family barbecue?

The answer is NO. I need to keep nagging, and I need to keep caring. I've got to be not just the "glue," but the "super glue." Family IS important and I never want to lose mine.

Families are supposed to be forever, so I better keep it that way.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

I Went To "Great Lengths"

Today I got a letter. It was from Locks of Love. Wanna know what they told me? They told me they actually used my hair for a hair piece.

 I. Was. Ecstatic.

I thought maybe they'd sell my hair, and use the money for something else, but no, I was wrong. I helped make a difference in someone's life. I felt so proud. It's not even that big of a deal, but I still feel so good about it.

I'm sure I'll donate my hair again in the future, but I am going to keep that letter forever and for always.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Some Cupids Kill

You know what happens if you try to hook people up? You end up having to find your own stupid date. It wouldn't be bad if you actually had someone to take, but uh, when you don't have any options, it's a bit tricky.

This is what I get for trying to play match maker. I've learned my lesson.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

My Peers Go To College. I Go Back To High School.

I LOVE MY NEW JOB!!! The students are freaking adorable. I've been having so much fun working with all of them. My coworkers are awesome too! I didn't realize how much I actually missed being a para. I'm so happy I was given the opportunity to take this job. It's simply the best!

Look how official I am!

I've been doing well with balancing my other job as well. Sure I'm a bit more tired than I'd like to be, but it's worth it. Plus, it teaches me more responsibility. Does me some good. Life is good. =]

Sunday, August 28, 2011

The "R" Word. Don't Use It.

More frequently I am hearing and seeing the word I hate the very most being used over and over. Retarded. This is NOT ok. Most people say, "I don't mean it like that." or, "You're being too sensitvie." Yes, I am being sensitive because I think it's extremely offensive. People may not "mean it like that," but don't even say it in the first place. It's wrong and hurtful. It is the exact same as a racial slur. They're plain disrespectful and derogatory.

Another thing I've been seeing/hearing more of are special needs jokes. Why in the WORLD would someone find that funny? It's not! People who joke about that really need to sit down and think about what they're saying.

What if someone you love was different? Not necessarily one with a mental or physical disability, but what if they were of a different race and someone made a racial comment or joke in front of them? You would be livid. You need to put yourself in someone else's shoes before you open your mouth.

The "r" word. It's not ok.

Spread the word to end the word.

Friday, August 26, 2011

She's 35 In Dog Years

Today is Sauxie's 5th birthday! I wanted to do something special for her since I never remembered her birthday years prior. You see, I didn't meet her until she was about 3 or 4 weeks old. I bought her as soon as I saw her though. I simply fell in love. Since she was so young, I couldn't bring her home with me until the end of September. Anyways, point of the story is I never knew her actual birthday. I learned it last year from a vet visit we had. (the vet is the who I purchased her from) It was after her birthday though, so we couldn't celebrate it. That's why I made it up to her this year!

I know this sounds so stupid, but I love my dog. She's helped me a lot growing up, and she's always there when I'm sad or alone. I may put her in sweaters, talk to her like a baby, and spoil her more than an animal should be spoiled, but she makes me happy.

Sauxie loved her cake! She begged for more! I've never seen her beg for something like that before! She practically licked her tongue raw trying to find crumbs leftover. Good thing she only gets one piece a night so it can last her a while! I love my Sauxie Sou and I'm so glad she's my pup.

I couldn't ask for a better dog! Love her!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

I'm Truly A Viking Forever

The craziest thing happened to me today. My old peer tutor teacher from high school called me and asked me to come work for her. Wow! I've never had anyone ask me to come work for them before!

My peer tutor teacher was the reason I got into the special needs field in the first place. She's amazing at her job! I had so much fun in her class! The fact that she wants me to come work with the kids, is beyond flattering.

I'm so glad that the hours at my job now aren't conflicting with the hours of this other job. I'm going to be able to do it! Yes, I'll have two jobs, but I think I can handle it. Weekdays, I'll be working at the high school from 10:15 - 2:15, with two shifts at Hollow Park from 4:00 - 8:30 on Wednesday's and Thursday's. I'll still work my graveyards on the weekends as well. I'm only part time at the high school, so it won't be too bad handling two jobs. I'm just so excited!

I start at the high school on Monday! I'm especially happy about getting this job because I get to work with one of my former students from the charter school I worked at earlier this year. I was actually the one who showed my student's family PG High and they fell in love with it. I'm also excited to see all the looks on my new coworkers' faces! They never thought I'd make it in life at that school. Hah! It's going to be fantastic when they find out I'm working there!

 I'm honestly so happy to have the opportunity to work with these kids. I cannot wait to start! It's going to be so much fun!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Training Personally

You know how I was running and stuff? Well I haven't been running in quite a while, unfortunately. I found I'm just not motivated when someone's not doing it with me. That's why I got a personal trainer.

I met with her for the first time yesterday, and I learned a lot. I found out why I was just maintaining weight instead of losing it with all the exercise I was doing. I thought that if you ate the right amount of calories, you know, not going over the set amount, that it was a good thing. WRONG! Turns out, there's a lot more to it.

She taught me about eating "clean." That means you eat as close to the source as possible. For example, just because a Fiber One brownie is only 90 calories, can you name the source? How about Fruity Pebbles? Can you name the source of those? Now, name the source of oatmeal. Oats, right? Simple as that. Eat close to the source! It doesn't mean you're going on a diet, it means you're learning to eat better and changing your lifestyle.

To "jump start" my weight loss, my trainer gave me a menu that I have to follow exactly for the next week.
This is it:
  • 1/3 cup oats (with water) + 2 egg whites (breakfast)
  • 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese + 1 cup of veggies (snack)
  • 4 ounces chicken breast with salad (lunch)
  • 2 whole eggs + salad (snack)
  • 4 ounces fish + 2 cups of veggies (dinner)
The trick is to eat 5 small  meals a day to maintain a high metabolism, so you burn calories all day long. Usually people just eat a big meal when they're hungry, which makes their metabolism go up, but they don't eat until they get hungry again, so their metabolism is back down. It makes it so you can't burn as many calories in a day.

Hopefully this is the push I need to get to the healthy lifestyle I want. I can't wait to see what happens!

Oh, and just a quick follow-up on how my meeting went for the hair apprenticeship. The girl called me back this morning and she asked me to come shadow her and her current apprentice on Monday. I take this as a good sign! I'm pretty excited. I hope I get it!

Monday, August 1, 2011

Sunday, July 24, 2011

I Can't Seem To Make Up My Mind.

My blog is UGLY!! I've been struggling with making it look cute. I need to learn how to do it cuz it's been making me mad!

Anyways, I've had something eating away at me in the back of my mind all day today. It would've been an important day, but when your good friend STOPS TALKING TO YOU COMPLETELY, things happen to change. Apparently doing good for others isn't ok with some people, but oh well. That's all I'm going to say about it.

On a brighter note, my dad and I invited some family to the Spanish Fork Fiesta Days rodeo last night. It was way fun! It was my cousins' first time at the rodeo too, so I like to think they had fun as well. While we were watching all the events, the announcer kept saying how much money they made in that season alone. Holy crap! Cowboys make bank! This made me come to the conclusion that I'm marrying a rodeo cowboy. Why the heck not? They make a lot of money, most of them are extremely good looking, and they're on the road a lot so when you get sick of them, they'll just go ride a horse and buy you pretty things. ;] Haha I only wish. I know that's not how life works, but a girl can dream, can't she?

I tend to "dream" a lot. I change my life plans every 2 months. In some cases every two weeks. For example, while I was in high school, I changed my career choice ALL the time. I started out wanting to be in the medical field. It was only natural, almost everyone in my family is a nurse. First I started out wanting to be an RN, then it went to paramedic, then a post-op nurse, then a chiropractor. After that I chose not to be in medicine at all. I wanted to be a photographer. I did really like it... Until I took photography classes. So after the photography, I had no idea what I wanted to do, but that's when I found the special needs field.Working with people with special needs is the most rewarding thing I've ever done in my entire life. I absolutely love it. So after high school I got a job at a charter school as a special needs aide. That's when I decided I wanted to be a special needs teacher! Yeah, not going to happen. So there I was, jobless and changing my mind yet again.

What was I going to do now? Well,  I've always done really well with kids, so that summer I was going to be an East Coast nanny. I was serious about this too. I found an agency, put my application in, and pretty much got a family, but then, I got my current job with Danville Services. Bye, bye nannying. I decided to stay here and earn money. Staying here isn't settling well with me though. I'm in that phase of life where I just have to get out of here and experience something new in life. So what do I do? Look for an apartment in St. George! Danville has a branch down there, so I was just going to transfer and start a new life for myself. Hah. That lasted literally 2 weeks. Don't get me wrong, I was serious about that too, but something came up. Beauty school, actually. I've always had a passion for the beauty industry. I love doing make-up, getting my hair, nails, and eyelashes done. It just fascinates me so much. I've looked into many different aesthetic programs but I never had enough money to start.

I always figured, if I'm going to do aesthetics, why not do hair as well? I was mentioning this to my friend that does my eyelashes, and asking her if she thought hair school or apprenticing would be better. I was thinking I'd do better apprenticing, but I didn't really know. Anways, my friend said apprenticing is better in her opinion and her boss is actually looking for someone to start in December! Boy, did this catch my attention! I talked to her boss about it and I can afford it, and my schedule at work allows me to be able to do school as well as work. All in all, the point of this very long novel of a post is that I want to start doing hair in December. Hopefully this isn't just another one of my decisions that won't last. I want this soooo bad, and I really, really would like to go through with it. I'm going to call the lady looking for an apprentice tomorrow and tell her how serious I am about it, and maybe she'll consider me.

So here's to moving on with life, and figuring out what you want! Wish me luck!

Monday, July 11, 2011

I Brake For Birds

Why is it when someone mentions a fundraiser, or anything of the sort, people ignore it, but when a party is mentioned, people go nuts over it? I don't know. But it drives me nuts. Now you ponder upon that.

Anywho, today, as I was driving home from work, there was a lil baby birdy in the street. It didn't start to fly away very fast, so I found myself slowing down so I wouldn't hit it. I then realized I do this quite often. I also realized I scream the same whether I'm about to hit a child, or a bird. I've come to the conclusion that birds get bored with their lives and like to play "chicken." Kinda like how deer play "frogger." Silly animals. Didn't your mothers ever tell you to look both ways before you play in the street?

I'm not really sure what the point of this post was... I just felt like blogging, I suppose. I'm probably a bit more tired than I actually think I am, but I shall leave you at that. Have a beautiful day, children.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy Birthday, America!

Why I love the 4th of July:
  • I'm a very patriotic person, so I love when everyone gets together to celebrate our freedom.
  • I love summer and it's a day to cram all summer festivities.
  • I spend the entire day with my family and friends.
  • Barbecue's!
  • Playing in the sun.
  • Thanking veterans and soldiers for what they've done/are doing for us.
  • And last but not least, putting my hand over my heart and saying the Pledge of Allegiance, singing The Star Spangled Banner, and just respecting that small symbol that represents such a big thing
The Fourth of July is definitely my favorite holiday! Well... The day time part of it at least. As I've mentioned before in one of my posts, I have a phobia of spontaneous loud noises. So as you can guess, fireworks don't settle well with me. Now that they've made aerial fireworks legal in Utah, I feel like I'm in a stinkin' war zone! I tried watching some tonight and I had to literally book it into my cousin's house. It makes me feel dumb, but I honestly cannot help it! Not to mention that one of them bolted me in the leg! It hurt me. Haha, I'm ok though. Just a lil bruise. All in all, I can say that today was a great day! I had so much fun and I can't wait til next year!

Happy Independence Day!

Saturday, July 2, 2011

We Kind Of Did It

Yeah, Morgan and I pulled off the Benefit Concert. BY OURSELVES! To all ya'lls that said we couldn't do it, IN YO FACE, SUCKAS!

Anyways, I would like you to go look at the information on our blog for Cole, so please click here.

Planning this concert was one of the most stressful situations I've ever been in. Morgan and I shared the tasks equally, but we also had our fair share of emotions. All the tears, anger, joy, depression, were well worth it. We did something so amazing, and despite what I've said, we did enjoy it. It made us proud regardless of any negative emotion or encounters we had to face. Not to mention we're kind of experts on fundraisers now!

Our goal for the Keller Family was to raise $8,000. So far, we've earned about $7,000. We're so close to our goal! We're not going to stop there, either. We're going to continue earning money, but the fact that we reached our goal so fast, is awesome.

 It. Feels. Good.  

Thursday, June 16, 2011

"Someone Remembers, Someone Cares; Your Name Is Whispered In Someone's Prayers"

Cole left this morning for Ohio. I've been thinking about it non-stop this whole week. Mostly about how things will go. I have faith that everything is going to be fine. There are always those little "what if's" though. What if he's completely different after the surgery, what if he goes blind, what if it doesn't stop his seizures. What if, what if, what if. It's terrifying. This amazing little boy is about to go through something life altering...AGAIN, good or bad.

I'm SO glad I got to be a small part of his life. I'm glad I got to meet him. I'm glad I got to watch him, play with him, love him. I'm just glad I was so privileged to come to know this child. He's amazing in every way, shape, and form. I wouldn't trade my experiences with him for ANYTHING.

Even though we just met not too long ago, I can't stress how much you mean to me. You've touched my heart and I want to give you the world. Cole, you are a fighter, and I know you'll get through this. You are an extremely loved little boy. You deserve nothing but the best. You will get through this. You will get this surgery. You will fight like heck to overcome your seizures as you've already done so much. I'm praying for you, Cole. I'm rooting for you. Know that everyone is on your side, and you're not alone. You're a very special little boy, and your parents are lucky to have you. Stay strong, Cole, Stay strong.
With all my love,

Friday, June 10, 2011

White Girl Got Rhythm!

There's a new Sun Drop soda commerical out, and mulitple people keep telling me that it reminds them of me. Let's take a look, shall we?

Yep. Totally something I do on a regular basis. I'm glad people tend to think of me when they see this. Does my heart good.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Camie's Run

As I mentioned in my last post, I ran a 5k on Saturday. It was a run for a woman named Camie who was recently diagnosed with cancer. My cousin is a good friend of her family, so she asked me to run it for her. I was more than happy to! I also drug Ashlee along with me. =]

 Tons of people showed up, and as far as I've been informed $10,000+ was raised for her! Isn't that awesome?? It was pretty fun, but a lot of work. I have a long ways to go, but I'll get there someday!

Friday, June 3, 2011

Back On My Feet

Things have really been looking up lately. I'm feeling much better. I starting running again so that has helped a lot. In fact, I have a 5k in the morning. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, but I'm sure I'll enjoy it. Plus, it's for a good cause, so it's just all around a great thing.
I've also been bumped up to full time at work. More monies for me! I sure do like the sound of that. The only bad part about it is I won't be able spend as much time with the girls, since I'm working mostly graveyard. I still get to see them in the mornings and one day during the week. That's better than nothing! I honestly don't know how some people handle graveyards for days at a time though! I'll be working 3 in a row every week, but some people have to do it every night! Then again, I don't sleep after my shifts so that's probably part of the reason I have such a hard time with them. It's gotten so bad that I like to call my Saturday's "Sleepless Saturday's." It gets to the point where I'm up more than 42 hours because I just don't say no. I really need to start or else I'm going to make myself sick, and I really don't want to do that.
I'd have to say today was a really good day. I feel like I accomplished a lot. Morgan and I found a venue for the benefit concert for Cole, (details coming soon) and I cleaned the crap out of my house. When I wasn't feeling the happiest, I just kind of didn't care about my house work, so today, I started caring. I forget how much better it feels when everything is clean and you're worry free. You know, laundry done, dishes done, cleaning done, cooking done. It's just a great feeling to sit down and relax after all that hard work.
Well anyways, I'm so happy to be back on track with life. Being sad like that sucked, so let's hope that doesn't happen again anytime soon.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Instead Of Standing There Stuck Out In The Weather...

I've kinda been feeling down in the dumps lately. Things just haven't been working out for me, and I've felt... well... stuck. I don't really want to go into detail, but I do want to share this ever so cheesy, yet inspirational song. I was driving this morning trying to find something to listen to on the radio, when I came across an up beat song. It sounded pretty ok so I thought I'd give it a shot. While I was listening, the lyrics just stood out to me. The funny thing is that it was on a station I've NEVER listened to in my life. So I guess as it turns out, it was one of those "I really needed that" moments.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Pressure Points

Today was one of those days where my Fibro really got to me. It frustrates me so much, I just want to scream and cry at the same time. Not only does it affect me, but it affects the people around me. It puts me in such a bad mood, that I make other people uncomfortable to even be around me. Sometimes, people don't want to be near me because they're afraid they'll "catch" my illness. Fibromyalgia is not contagious.
I don't like to talk about it because I feel like I'm complaining too much. I really try to not let it get in the way of my life, when it's actually a huge part of it. To help you better understand what I feel, imagine the body aches that come with a cold. Now imagine the body aches that come with a cold x10 along with many other symptoms. I'm not sure if that actually helps you get an idea, but it's the only way I know to describe it.
I've been looking up blogs for people that also suffer from Fibromyalgia. As I've read, I've actually learned a lot. I've always noticed these things happening, but I've never connected the two. For example, I read this:

"For people with fibromyalgia, dealing with symptoms such as chronic pain, fatigue, and insomnia is only part of the battle. The disorder can also cause emotional distress, relationship problems, and social struggles."

Here's something else I read that just makes me go "YES! Exactly!"

"If you’re in chronic pain, it’s challenging for you and your friends and family. This is particularly true if you have an "invisible" condition like fibromyalgia, which is hard for other people to understand.

"I think people cannot see how it affects us—at least not like a cast on a broken arm or an open wound. I remember looking at my leg thinking that the burning, knife-like pain did not even make my skin red."

Knowing there are other people who know exactly how I feel just relieves so much. Most of the members in my family know how I feel, because they have it as well, but we don't talk about it, so that's why I've felt so alone. I'm not going to let the struggle of this stupid disease take over my life. I'm going to continue to push through this. It's not going to stop me. I will not let it win.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

A Little Off The Top, Please.

First of all, I need you all to understand why I did what I did. Go watch this video before you continue on. 

The deed was done. I took a total of 13-14 inches off my hair, and I'm donating 11 of it.  

I haven't had hair this short since I was 8 years old. It's definitely a big difference. I'm still getting used to it, but I'm warming up to the idea.
I have no clue how to style it, and it frustrates me. That's ok though, all I have to do is practice.
I don't regret what I did, because I know it was for an excellent cause, and hair grows back. I helped two charities at the same time, just by cutting off a little hair. Knowing that doing something so simple, helped someone, is pretty rewarding.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Good Things Must Come To An End

In less than 9 hours... 11 inches of my hair will be gone. I know, I know, blog about something different, but I can't help it! I'm nervous, ok?! In honor of my last day of long hair for a while, my great friend Ashlee did my hair really pretty. Check it out!

How cute is that? I simply loved it. She did an awesome job. Thanks, Ashlee!

Come 10:00 am, I'll be a whole new woman.... Well with the hair at least. I'm sure I'll like it, but we'll see how it goes! Wish me luck!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Only Your Real Friends Will Tell You When Your Face Is Dirty

Countdown to 5k.... 2 days!
Countdown to hair chopping..... 4 days!

Am I ready? Yes! For both! My training is going pretty bomb, and I'm ready to lose the hair. In fact, I'm excited for the changes I'm making in my life. A new job, a new lifestyle, a new appearance. I'm changing a lot of things. They're all positive too. I feel as if I'm happier (not that I wasn't happy before) and I have more motivation and drive to do things. I have a feeling this summer is going to be fantastic.
Oh, and can I just say how great it is spending time with your great friends you haven't spent time with in a while? It's like... Really great. I've been missing a couple of my friends. (Ashlee and Emily) We used to hang out allll the time, but we stopped doing that. Lately I've been seeing a lot of them, and it's been so fun! I work with Emily now, and Ashlee's been so kind as to running and training for this 5k with me! Reconnecting with old friends is seriously the best. I'm glad we've been hanging out more and laughing about old times, while enjoying our new ones =]
.......Think I could've been a bit more cheesy? Yeah, that was bad, but hey, it's whatevs.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Note To Self: Don't Do That.

When someone says "Eyelash extensions change your life," trust them. I couldn't see how something like that could make such change in my life, but I'll tell you what, they made a HUGE change! Time that it took me to do my make-up was cut in half. Not to mention that you could have no make-up on at all and still look like a rock star.
So on that note, let me tell you how they can change you even more. Long story short, I had to remove my extensions today. (I did it the right way though. I used the tweezers and everything) Funny thing is, my natural eyelashes just happen to be in the prime of their new lash cycle, so when I got all the false lashes off, I literally had lil tiny baby things underneath them. I LOOK NAKED! I seriously feel like I can't leave my house because my eyelashes aren't beautiful like they used to be! It makes me so sad that I don't have my princess lashes. I don't think I'm ever going to take of my extensions no matter what happens ever again!
Now here's bummer story #2. My first 5K is in 9 days (May 14th) and I've been running everyday so I can be ready for it. Well I'm running this morning like normal, twisted my foot really funny, and landed on it weird. It didn't hurt that bad, so I just kept running. BAD IDEA. Now I can't walk on it at all. It's all swollen and fat looking. I'm like praying it's not broken. I don't think it is, because I don't know how something like that could break it, but it sure hurts like it is! I'm still going to that 5K though. You can't stop me. I will ride a freaking scooter if I have to, but I am not missing my first 5K! I will finish it by all means necessary. You can count on it.

Friday, April 29, 2011


So you know when you're looking through a cookbook and you see these adorable or delicious looking cupcakes or muffins??
Well it's all a load of crap unless you're Martha freaking Stewart.
I tried making these muffins for the bake sale tomorrow...

Instead they turned out like this..... =[

I give up on baking forever! I'll bake for MY enjoyment. Not other people's.
Not like anyone would eat....THAT anyways!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

There's No Hobo In This Harry!

Well, I got a new job. All thanks to my friend Emily. I'm way excited! I start next week. I think it'll be a fun job and I can't wait to start!
I'm way happy about the job and all, but wanna know what sucks? When you go on a date and you think it went really well, but the guy all the sudden stops talking to you. HAH! That's great for my self esteem, don't ya think? Yeah. It makes me feel like crap. I know everyone says "he's not worth it, there's plenty of fish in the sea, blah blah blah" but it's not him as much as it is me. I feel like I'm just not good enough for anyone! I know that's not true, but to tell you the truth, this isn't the first time it's happened to me. Kinda pathetic, right? I dunno what I'm doing wrong! I'll try to stop worrying about it though. It's not something I should let myself get worked up over. I just had to complain a little =]

"Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical."
-Sophia Loren

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Hard Work Pays Off

Some very sad news today, folks. I found out that cute boy from 26.2 Running is gone. He can't tell me I have strong ankles anymore. It's tragic..... Oh well!
Anyways, so training, yeah? Well it's going fantastic. Not only am I noticing my endurance building, but I'm noticing a physical difference too. It feels great! I'll be in shape in no time ;]
I've also mentioned how I'm chopping my hair off very soon, and I've been looking into short hairstyles. I found one I really like.  
What do you think?
It's not much different from the hairstyle I have now, but I gotta stick with something that works for me. I don't want to cut it too short, because I think my face is too round. The length of her hair in the picture is about as short as I'll go. I'm getting anxious for the hair cutting, but it's for a great cause, and it's time for change! Not to mention hair grows back. Mine grows pretty fast too, so I'm not worried at all.
 One month left of long hair! I gotta enjoy it while it lasts!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Success? I Think Yes.

So the bake sale was yesterday, and can I just say, it was AMAZING! $3,600 was earned. How awesome is that? Pretty dang awesome if you ask me.

He doesn't look very happy... But he was just tired =]

No kids showed up, so I got to hold the sign! I was so dang good at it, too.

Yeah, we're like the best babysitters, ever! =P

It was great seeing family and friends coming to support his family. Those people are definitely loved and I hope nothing but the best for them! They deserve everything good in their lives that has ever happened to them. They're fighters, and I know little Coler Bear will make it through this!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Packin' My Bags

I've decided I'm running away. Australia sounds nice.
I'm leaving tomorrow.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

"That might sound boring, but I think the boring stuff is the stuff I remember the most"

I just really love my dad. He made everything all better today.
Yesterday was my Birthday, but it wasn't a very good one. I got to see little Coler Bear and eat dinner with my amazing family! It was really fun, but I felt soooo sick. My Fibro hit me hard. I felt bad though cuz everyone could tell. I was trying really hard to enjoy myself, but I guess I didn't do a very good job. Not to mention my brother preferred to go to a band's concert that he's seen 7 times already, and made me cry, but it's all good. (That's a guilt trip, Ty)
Anyways, today, I was all sorts of bummed about not being able to do more for my Birthday, so my dad ended up taking me out! We went shopping, and rented movies. We spent the whole day together. It was so fun.
My memories are full of little things like that. You know, spending time with my family, having fun, and just loving life! Everything seems so perfect in that one little moment. You just forget about all your worries, and you're as happy as can be.
That's why I love my dad. He helps me live those perfect moments.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

You Never Know Whose Prayers You Might Answer By Doing A Good Deed

Today I got an e-mail from a complete stranger that told me she's planning a bake sale just for Cole. It brought me to tears. I've been so frustrated with nothing working out for us, so this kind of news was definitely a blessing. She told me she wants to give all the earnings to Cole and his family. I'm so thankful for the good people left in the world. This family is an answer to our prayers. She's teaching her children about helping others, and showing them what a blessing it actually is. She said she's going to be helping at least two charity's a month.
I've never been so impressed in my life. She's putting all her spare time into things like this for people she's never even met. If that's not a saint, I don't know what is. She's teaching her children a wonderful thing. I want to learn and grow from her example.
Charities are a big deal. They help save lives, they help raise awareness, they help earn money for those in need. Next time someones asks you if you'd like to donate a dollar to a charity, say yes. It's one dollar. It's not going to kill you. Next time you see a donation box, put some money in it. Even if it's just a penny, it makes a difference. Next time you hear about a bake sale, or any sort of fundraising event, go to it. EVERY PENNY COUNTS. People need as much help as they can get. I can't stress that enough.
Helping someone in need is definitely a life changing experience. It makes you feel better about yourself, and the things you have. No longer will I complain about my life. I'm completely selfish if I ever say that I have it "rough." I have no idea what it's like to have it rough. I don't have immense amounts of medical bills to pay, or a sick child to take care of. I don't have the daily struggle like so many others in the world do. I'm lucky to have the life that I do. So please, if you can, help in the slightest way! Like I said, you never know whose prayers you'll be answering.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

He Said I Have Strong Ankles

"The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible."

Who knew you'd have to raise funds for a fundraiser? It's extremely discouraging. People don't get the fact that it's a BENEFIT concert and they're all "Oh, we'll take 50% of your earnings." Ummmmm...... Hello?? We're trying to earn money, not share it. Oh well. I have to stay positive! Complaining about it isn't going to help.
On a brighter note, my training is really paying off. I set my own personal record tonight. I'm very proud of myself. I've changed my diet completely, I'm training everyday, and I'm actually pushing myself. It's not showing on the outside yet, but that's ok. Who knew charity would keep me so motivated?? It feels great. Helping people is helping me! There's no way I'm giving up. I'm too devoted to stop now!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

When You Get In Trouble and You Don't Know What To Do...

Have you ever been so frustrated that you just want to scream? Or cry? Well, I've been doing both. If I'm around one more negative person, I'm going to explode. I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but I am. How do you expect me to stay happy and hopeful when you just put me down? I need your support, your happiness, your love. I need you to be hopeful. I need you to stand by me. I need you to appreciate what I'm doing. I need YOU more than you can imagine. I'll prove you wrong. I'll show you I can do it. I won't give up hope. I will not give up hope.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Lucious Locks

Heya, kids! Today I found out I have enough length in my hair to be able to donate! I ALMOST chopped it off, but I wasn't mentally prepared. But in 6 weeks, you better believe it's outta here. I sure did miss my blonde hair though, so I went back... Take a look!
I like it so much better than the brown. It was a nice change for a while, but blonde is the hair color for me =]

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

A Little Better... But Not Much.

So I ran again tonight. I actually made it the 3 miles! I still have a LONG ways to go, but I got this. I'll be trained. Sall good.
Oh my gosh, kids! Guess what! We got all the acts we need for the benefit concert! How killer is that? AND!  Oh, and! A lot of people are taking interest in Cole's story, so they're donating a lot of awesome stuff for the silent auction! Now, I just need someone willing to donate the t-shirts and we're so set, it's crazy. I'm loving people so much this week. It's freaking fantastic!
Guess what else! My Birthday is not this Friday, but the next. I'm excited. I probably won't do anything, but it's my Birthday, ya know? Everyone gets excited for their Birthday. Well... Almost everyone. I dunno... This is just a fantastic month, full of fantastic people, doing fantastic things. It's just....FANTASTIC!

Monday, March 28, 2011

There's No Punch Line

Running and I... We don't mix. It's a freaking joke. I started training for some 5k's tonight that I'm going to run this summer, and I didn't last very long. I've always hated running! But you know what, I just gotta keep telling myself that it's for a good cause. I have a while to train, so I should be ok by the time the races come, but building endurance SUCKS!!! I don't like the process. It'll be ok though. I can do this! Let's just hope I don't kill over! =D

Friday, March 25, 2011

Benefit Concert For Cole

This is Cole. He's a little boy I babysit, and he needs brain surgery. He's the cutest. His story is so touching. Please help if you can. And read his blog!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

I Have This New Obsession...

Foy Vance. He's amazing. I loooove his music. I just recently discovered him, and I can't get enough. It's relaxing, fun, and unique. I think you should give him a listen.
This song is my favorite at the moment

Yeah, I love his music.